i feel disgusted and ill

so my uncle came home from my parents house, with a gift for me from them.

it was a stocking filled with various things, then there was an envelope and in its a card saying even though it may not seem like it right now we will always love you with 100 dollars in it.  if they knew me they would know i don't care about the gifts or money, if they loved me they would have called me, or at least show some acknowledgement towards my existence, money will not buy back the things that were taken away during my adolescence, it will not buy back what we have lost over the past 6 months, nor will it make me love them anymore or less.  I thought about writing a letter to them returning the money, then i thought about just being a glutton, keeping the cash but, when it all really comes down to it neither of those options seem fitting.  So, I've decided i am going to give it away anonymously to people who need the money starting tonight with the woman across the street who just lost her job, i plan on giving 20 bucks to five different individuals, sure its not much but i figure its something.