went to my uncles tonight,

i dont know, the night was good for the most part minus some of the comments said to me.. i wish people would really get off my case, im going through enough with out their side comments.  i can even see the way people look at me when they talk to me like they feel bad for me and my situation, i dont want others pity.  the most interesting gift i got was the one my uncle scott got me it's symbolic, a bird in a cage necklace.  if you know what's been going on in my life you'll understand. laurens aka my uncles girlfriends family was there, her brother scott and me talked the majority of the night just about stupid random stuff while playing with dradles, he's like a little kid at heart but extremely intelligent, which is everything im attracted to, lets just say he is really growing on me. any who i have to go and find a tape of my uncle from when he was younger so lauren can see tomorrow, morning.   she took so many photos tonight, oh how i love those candid moments, NOT and i tried putting her new tripod she got on her head, it was hilarious. although all this is going on i cant help but be a bit sad this time of year, it just makes you think about things you just want to forget, in hopes of just forgetting its christmas all together.  i dont know dont get me wrong im very thankful for what i have and im trying to remember the whole meaning behind christmas, its just difficult when all that you're use to isnt there anymore, i think its more of the fact you look at others and see their love for their families, thats the real reason christmas was always so special to me, i could give a shit less about the money, presents, etc.  tomorrow is going to be hard.