I'm accustom to change, I embrace it, I don't like to harp on the past so instead I leave it there and move on, people change, including yourself and sometimes you simply outgrow your old lifestyle..

it's hard to keep people in your life whose priorities aren't your own or at least similar to your own, it's a difficult juggle and eventually you will end up growing so tired that you wont want anything to do with any of it, I'm not quite there thank god but the other night as i nearly barfed up all my dinner from all the bullshit i decided i was going to make a decision, a big one. In the long run i was trying to mix oil and water, id rather have the water, it's an essential. I've tried my best to help but there is only so much you can do for a person, I've seen them cry over it, I've been their shoulder, I've given them advice that they so longly search for but never take to heart and the most pathetic part of it all is that they want it to get through but don't know how to change.