You ever not want to have anything to do with something because it's linked to a series of bad memories or a certain individual? It's hard, extremely hard but sometimes there are situations that you hate but you suck it up because you knew what the conditions were before you got involved, just not the aftermath and even though it kills you from time to time you let the feeling go for the love of the person who links you and this "thing", you have to take responsibilty for your actions even if you don't like the outcome, but still do all you can to better the situation otherwise the feeling will eat you alive.