Im so glad to see that the comment I made in one of my previous blogs about things getting worse before getting better has been fulfilled. That being the case, I'm trying to stay optomistic towards the idea of a more promising future, even though I feel like a lost puppy. I mean I have the goals all being set up and sorting into place it's just the caring/comforting aspect which is lacking but once I accomplish all these goals I know those aspects will be back in my grasp. You could consider love my driving force, I've never really had anything that I wanted to strive for probably because my future was a blur due to the fact I didn't care what happened tomorrow, but then i found something so powerful that jolted me to wake up acknowledging i can have a promising future, my life can change and my dreams do come true, overwhelming me with this sense of happiness because i never gave up on those those thoughts and once those thoughts became real is when I started thinking about a future. I owe a lot to the love of my life, I don't care how sappy it sounds to other people because it's true.